Posted by joanne on January 18, 19100 at 21:42:38:
my beloved husband of 18 years died 7 months ago, the first while i thought i was o.k., i didn't
have a support group, or any friends that seemed to care, i was brave and strong and very busy
taking care of details, then it hit me like i had been run over by a semi. the loneliness is
unbearable, the isolation, the withdrawal, the feeling that no one will ever know what i am
going through, emotionally and physically. i try to put on a good front, and most of the time
it works, but today out of sheer madness i told 2 friends that i thought they were very shallow
selfish and that i didn't want to have anything to do with them anymore, then i came home and \
cried and cried. i know when larry died, something in me died too, so how do we go on living
when we are in such pain