Posted by Lucy on August 06, 2001 at 19:36:19:
I'm sorry to say that I just lost my husband July 24, 2001. He was the most incredible man I have ever met. He was 34 and I am 31. We have no children (something I wish I could change now) but he had all the love in the world. He is my life. He died very suddenly (bacterial infection) he went from perfect health to his final breath in 24 hours. This is the most disturbing experience I've ever had to deal with. I lost my mother May 13, 2000 (in a car accident) and now nothing seems to make sense anymore. I feel cheated out of my future and upset that I wasn't given the option to leave this earth with him. He really treated me like a princess and I miss his embrace. Life really seems unfair right now and I'm at a loss. I'm afraid to be alone and even more afraid to think about going on with my life right now. Just concentrating on breathing right now seems like a lot. I wake up in the middle of the night with my heart pounding. I feel him at peace but my life is in turmoil. I don't know how to go on because I feel that going on means leaving him behind.
Any insight anyone can give would be greatly appreciated.
Many Thanks and best of luck to everyone that is struggling right now.