Posted by Moses L Butler on February 08, 2001 at 19:47:13:
My wife of 16 yrs passed away Sunday morning October 29, 00. She wasn't and didn't show any signs of being ill. She just went to sleep and didn't wake up. I discovered her the next morning when the alarm clock went off to awake us for church. I miss her deeply. Everyday it seems as if a dagger is constantly being pushed into my heart because of the lonliness. I have two children (10 & 14) at home and its difficult trying to fulfill both roles as a parent. At times I don't want to continue to live but I constantly think about my children. I feel guilty at times because I long for companionship. Are there any widows that feel the same way? Is it wrong to want conpanionship? I don't want to replace my wife because no one could hold such a special place in my heart. My wife Sylvia was my everything and I feel guilty just thinking about having another woman to talk to or anything.