Posted by Tammy on October 23, 2000 at 15:23:25:
My husband was diagnosed with a brain tumor 1 month shy of our 1st. anniversary. He lived just two short years, and died on Sept 26, 2000, just shy of our 3rd year anniversary and his 33rd birthday. I have the hardest time dealing with the pain right after I get home from work. He was my soulmate, and I loved him with all my heart. We have a son, who was stillborn last July (1999). It's hard to deal with the fact that my family is in heaven and I am left here to deal with the pain. There is so much pain. It's like a great black hole, so vast in it's emptiness. I am afraid if I let myself feel the full extent of it, that I will never come out of that hole of depression. What can I do?