Posted by Dawn on August 13, 2002 at 20:08:30:
In Reply to: Tragedy at 27 posted by Jessica on August 01, 2002 at 09:06:00:
Jessica,
Please accept my condolences for your loss. Although I do not know your exact pain, I can relate to the suddenness of your loss. In April, my fiance' passed away in his sleep. On the night of the 8th I spoke to him on the phone. On the 9th, I got a call from his family telling me he was gone. Four months later, the pain is still here. If you're like me, it takes most of the strength that I have just to make it through each day. People say that it will get better, but it doesn't...it just gets different. When I say that I'll probably never be with anyone else again because he was my soul mate, they just kinda blow it off as "the grief talking." I have went through various stages of guilt, anger and sorrow. When you lose a fiance', it's like losing your future. We were planning to get married in June of next year as well. The things that bring me comfort are my relationship with God (I understand that sometimes bad things happen to good people), my memories of him (instead of being tortured by those memories, I made a decision to celebrate them), and the hope of seeing him again in Heaven (I hope I do not offend you with my talk of God...I do believe in Him and without that belief I probably wouldn't still be here). It's not easy. I'd like to thank you for sharing because sometimes I feel like I'm the only one going through anything like this! People in my life can't really relate...If you want to talk, I'm here!
Dawn