Posted by VJB on October 05, 2001 at 18:48:24:
I just lost my husband!! He was 37 years old. He died of lung cancer. He was a NON SMOKER.
I have a beautiful 8 mos old son. I am blessed with him but it saddened me that he will never know how great his father was.I am a single mother now. How am I going to do this alone?!!
My husband treated me like a queen. We had a GREAT realtionship. He was my best friend..We were together for 9 years, married almost 3.
I feel sooo lonely. I miss him so much.The nights and weekends are difficult. We had soo many plans for the future.
He told me that he was going to fight the illness. He said that he had a reason to live... I believed him. When I look back we both were in denial.
It comforts me that he is not in pain anymore. He is finally at peace. He is in God's care.
But how do I go on??I have to make a new life for me and my son. I am trying to take it day by day. But it's like a roller coaster ride. I can't stop crying. It just hurts so much. I still can't believe he is gone.
Thanks for listening!