Posted by Helen England on April 13, 2001 at 17:17:40:
Hello
My name is Helen and I live in England (uk)
My fiance was killed in a freak accident at his work, he was 29 years old.
I was 23 at the time and 7 months pregnant with our first child. We had been together five years and we were so happy and in love.
At first it was the shock that nearly killed me and I don't remember much about the funeral and all the people who came and went at that time.
I remember feeling as if there would never be an end to my pain and the yearning I felt for Steve to be beside me.
2 months after the accident our beutifull son was born. I don't remember much about him as a baby, the most important time of my life was spoiled and clouded with grief and endless questions of why me.
I have never seen Steve hold his son and I will never share the joy of bringing him up with his daddy.
My son is 16 months now, the image of his Daddy, walking everywhere and a real handfull! He has his dads cheeky smile and twinkly eyes, not a day goes by that i do not look at Steve through my son
We have since moved back to be near family and i have started a job as a travel agent which i really enjoy. I try and keep busy and always have people around me but its just not the same.
I miss Steve, I am lonely and feel I will be like this forever and Kyle will never have a Daddy as nobody understands.
Is there anyone out there I can talk to,
Helen