Posted by Kelly on June 14, 2002 at 19:24:16:
In Reply to: widow at 28 posted by Brandy Croteau on June 10, 2002 at 00:27:16:
Hello Brandy. I came to this page to find someone who would understand the pain that I am also going through. I am 28 years old and my husband died on May 2, 2002 in a car accident while on his way to work. We have a six year old son, a two year old daughter and I am now five months pregnant, we found out we were having another son two days before he died. I feel like I am only half alive sometimes and I can relate to the unexpected flood of tears that can be triggered at any time. I also feel the pain of knowing that my children will never really know their father. He was a great dad. He changed just as many diapers as I did and was their own personal play gym every night before bed. My two year old asks "Where's Daddy?" almost every day. It's hard sometimes to be strong for them. My husband was my best friend and life has become a very lonely place for me. Although I have a lot of supportive family and friends, they don't really know how I feel. I was a full time student with one year to go before getting my teaching degree. I don't plan on returning until maybe January. I can understand the need to take time off from everythng it seems. I feel secluded even though I am rarely alone. If you ever want to talk or vent please feel free to email me anytime.