Posted by Carrie Scattergood on November 08, 2001 at 05:39:10:
In Reply to: Life does go on... posted by Carissa on August 28, 2001 at 12:46:28:
Carissa,
Thank you so much for your words of hope. I am 21 and lost my fiancee (my partner of 7 1/2 years) in June this year. He was also 21. As you know the pain I feel is cannot be described. I feel like I am the only person that is feeling like this and who has lost their soul mate so young but reading all these messages (and yours as you are such a similar age to myself) makes me realise I am not alone. So many people in the world are suffering today.
You are right that love never dies. My wonderful fiancee has given me so many signs in the past few months to let me know he is still with me. We still have a relationship of sorts. We still need each other, comfort each other, protect and want to be with each other and most of all, we still and always will love each other more than anything! I know it is only a matter of time before me and my baby are together again but it does not stop the hurt of missing the physical person. Someone to talk to, to cuddle, to hold hands with and, with Christmas fast approaching, it hurts all the more. I sometimes think my heart is just going to explode out of my chest and burst into a million pieces. Every day my heart shatters and the noise is so deafening but I seem to be the only one who can hear it.
Your words do give me hope and I just wanted to send you a big thanks for that, all the way from England. Keep fighting Carissa and remember your husband is always watching, protecting and loving you. He is waiting just like you are and one day, whenever that may be, you will both be together again in a world much more beautiful than this one. A world of no hate, no jealousy, no dark clouds. Just sunshine and love. One day my fiancee and I will see you both there.
Thanks again,
Carrie from Derbyshire, UK.