Posted by Andrea DeCuzzi on August 31, 2001 at 10:05:52:
I lost my husband on August 4, 2001. He die of a massive heart attack. He was only 48. I think I am still in shock. He was my soulmate, my bestfriend and the person I wanted to spend the rest of my life with. I miss him dearly and I am not sure how I will get through this. The pain I feel is like nothing I have felt before. Every thing I do reminds me of him. We were married for 12 years and together for 15. We never had children, and now I wish we did. I do have a 29 year old step son, which since the death has brought us closer. This was not my plan and I feel cheated. My love for life has changed and I feel no joy. I have lots of friends for support, but none of them really know what I am going through. They want to understand but unless you've taken this road you will never know. There is nothing any one can do. I feel lost and empty inside. Every thing is a struggle.
Does any one know if there are young widow groups like the one in Seattle in Southern California or where I could find this information? I would like to be around people who understand.
Thanks for listening.