Posted by Lee Snow on September 02, 2001 at 00:53:01:
In Reply to: Re: Loss of my husband posted by Cheryl on August 31, 2001 at 13:35:08:
Believe me, I know what you are feeling. I lost my wife to cardiac arrest on August 21. She was only 59. We were married 41 years, 3 month and 11 days, and it was too short. We shared five children together and they have been very supportive, as have a multitude of friends. But after the expressions of sympathy are past there still remains the longing for her presence, the rememberences, the feeling of loss. I believe that this must be a new beginning, not the beginning of the end. This is not meant to dishonor her; I would have expected her to pick up her life and go on if I had died first. I've concluded that I must seek out a support group; though none can replace the loss, perhaps it will help me find that new beginning. You should know that I dreamed last Wednesday that I was dying. The sky I could see through a window was black and menacing; I was fearful. Then the black sky faded away and a blue summer sky with white fluffy clouds returned, and I was at peace. I was not dying. I believe there was a message there. My prayer is that you will find the blue summer sky soon.