Posted by Kelly on April 18, 2001 at 00:12:45:
In Reply to: Re: Re: Re: Loss of my husband posted by Amy Buckner on April 13, 2001 at 21:16:05:
Wow, I guess I am not alone. I had a bad day today, couldn't seem to stop crying after work. It has been just over a year for me too, and maybe I am settling in to being alone after so long (20 years) that I now know what it is like to feel lonely...not good... He was 42, I am 39, no kids except my stepson (24). "Steve" was doing very well in treatment for colorectal cancer. Then a blood clot forms in a rarely seen place in his brain, and boom, 3 days later he is gone. Although most anyone will tell you how strong I am and how I am handling this well, the truth is, this really sucks.
I am in Portland, thinking it would be nice if there is a group around here(??), although I am still at the anonymous, chicken stage, of getting out there. Moved here last July so I have lots of family nearby now, but leaving behind all the friends he and I shared makes the whole "alone" thing worse.
Seems everyone is too busy to really know that...
"The best things in life, are not things...."