Posted by Daniela on July 09, 2000 at 02:40:17:
I was reading a lot of the pages of this side and I thought I maybe should share my story with all of you as well. My fiancee died exactly one year ago in a car accident. We were just planning our wedding and all of sudden he was gone - gone forever. I went and still am going through all these emotions. A couple of weeks after his death I was sitting at home all by myself and I could feel his presence. I started talking to him as we always did and I could hear him answer to all my questions. That was the time when I thought now I am going crazy. A couple of days later I saw an old friend again. She said to me she had a message from Mark, my fiancee for me. I was completely devasted and I could not believe that somebody would make such a nasty joke. But what she had to tell me was not a joke - everything she said I knew was true. She told me things nobody could have ever known about our relationship. She told me in English, a language she does not even speak. She also asked me if I never felt his presence, she was certain that I had. After that I left the country where I was so happy with him and started a new life. I found a new home and a new job and I am living very close to my sister again. But I know I would not have been able to do that all by myself. He was and still is always here to support me. He wanted me to come to this country, where I am a foreigner. The soul lives forever, so do our feelings for each other - no matter what. If I need advise, help or just somebody to talk to - I'll talk to him - and he answers me, helps and supports me - in a different way, but he does. I still kiss him good night and tell him that I love him. Our lifes have changed, but he did not disappear - he is still around me and he always will, he is my guardian angel. The soul of a loved one doesn't die with his or her body. Unfortunately most people cannot see that. But believe me they are always there for us - they still care - they still love us and they do miss us as much as we miss them. Just believe in their love and try to listen - its worth it. I am not saying, I am not sad and upset and I still miss him so much every day, but I just to know that he is always around me - comforts me a lot. Maybe I cannot find the right words to explain what happened to me. But I know for sure I am not crazy either. Just think what was really important to your loved one and what he or she wanted you to do. They will guide you, if you let it happen.
Daniela