Posted by Anne on April 09, 2000 at 21:22:37:
In Reply to: THE SUDDENESS, SADNESS AND NO EXPLANAITION posted by Julie Gallacher on March 29, 2000 at 14:42:45:
I understand. I lost my husband last June 16 while in bed. He was just dieing as I wakened for the day. I heard him breath his last. I have learned to go on. I hide my grief in private now. I figure no one really wants to hear it anymore. Most do not understant the extrodinary toll a death such as this takes on a person. Now I live in fear that I will live without love my entire life. I miss the intimate touch and closeness of marriage. I even miss his mess and the fights we used to have. I miss it all, but I am going on. I want normal again, but have figured out that I can only have a NEW normal. That is what it is about. It is not fair, it is angering, it lies very heavy on your heart. You are cracking up, but it is part of the grief that you are experiencing. The good news is that the "cracking up" part is only temporary. The healing does take much longer. I will let you know when I get there. It hasn't happened yet.
God bless you.
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