Posted by Sheila on December 20, 2002 at 00:19:27:
Hi i am only 18 but i dont know where to go with this. I lost my fiancee on september 24, 2002. We were about to celebrate our 4 year anniversary on October 3. I have never been alone. EVER! Every since i was in 6th grade i had a boyfriend. I met my fiancee in the 9th grade and we fell in love. We had been together every since then. In June of this year i moved in with him. He was only 18 too. I got used to sleeping in the same bed with him and waking up next to him. Well on September 22 my life was turned upside down. We were driving home from the grocery store and we were hit by a drunk driver 1 mile from our house. Matt Lived for a day and a half in the hospital and never woke up. Now im so lonely. I go watch his team bowl every week and there is a really nice guy there that i talk to just as friends. But sometimes i think about making it more. I dont know why. i loved matt so much and could never imagine being with anyone else. but i know im young. but i also know im probably just really lonely and am looking for love. i dont know. i guess im writing for advice. i keep saying that it has only been 3 months and maybe i should continue being friends with this guy and later on if i still feel this way i should see where it goes. i know the guy is attracted to me but he knows about matt and stuff. im not sure what to do. i just know i miss my baby. plus i need people to talk to so if anyone has advice please help me.