Posted by Jessica on August 16, 2002 at 14:16:33:
In Reply to: Re: Tragedy at 27 posted by Shannon on August 01, 2002 at 16:53:31:
Shannon,
I am very sorry for both your losses (your wife and step-daughter). Believe me when I say, I understand most of what you are going through. People all say that, but unless it happened to them, they don’t even have the faintest idea.
I still don’t know what to do with myself. I still don’t sleep well, eat well, or concentrate very well. I don’t want to do anything either. I’m mad at most of the people in my life because of their lack of support. I thought they would be there for me. All I’m asking for is for a phone call once in a while to see how things are (not like they change very much). But like you realized, they go back to living their life and you are still stuck in the pit of despair.
A little warning about going out. Go ONLY if YOU want to go. Don’t let your friends make you. You will have a miserable time if you are doing it to get your friends off your back. Also, if possible, always take your own vehicle. That way you aren’t stuck somewhere when that wave of agony sweeps through you. That was my mistake a couple weeks ago. It was a friends birthday. Come out with us for awhile, they said. It will do you some good to get out they said. So, I listened to them even though I knew I wasn’t going to have any fun. After about 30 minutes I already wanted to leave. Wait until I finish this beer, they said. A song came on the radio, the waterworks started. I was in the bathroom for over 30 minutes trying to get a grip. No one even came looking for me. That was enough, I left.
We are both new to this grieving thing. If you need someone to just chat with, who is experiencing the same (similar) pain, don’t hesitate. Take care of yourself. Make sure you eat something, even if you don’t want to.
God Bless,
Jessica