Posted by Brandy on June 12, 2002 at 23:00:51:
In Reply to: Facing the Holidays Alone for the First Tme posted by AK on November 15, 2001 at 19:41:55:
This will be my first holiday season without my husband. He was killed May 26, 2002 in a tragic motorcycle accident. I am worried how I will do it. My husband brought so much joy to even the dullest of moments. Father's Day is this Sunday and I am thankful that my small children, 2 1/2 years and 8 months, do not know about the holiday. I usually make a big sign for the front yard for all to see. The first year I wrote "The best dad in the world lives here." I was going to make a tradition out of it and now I don't have htat option. My son turns' 1 in September, my daughter 3 in October (my husband and her have the same birthday) and then the traditional holidays. I feel so helpless right now. All of my life I have had to be straong. I was abused from the time I was 6 until I moved from my parents home. I thought I had beaten the odds by getting a degree, having a healthy family and healthy relationships and now this. I am thankful though that I told my self in the minimum I wanted to have a MAster's Degree so that I would be able to support myself and the kids should anything ever happen to Steve and now I need it. I was just accepted into the Master's Program and I am sure my husband had somehting to do with it. How have you survived emotionally through all of this? Please help.