Posted by Ron on December 23, 2001 at 09:34:55:
In Reply to: Removed from life support posted by Sarah on November 30, 2001 at 20:40:54:
I thought I was crazy for feeling the way you do. Like it was my fault. I lost my wife to cancer on 10/28/01. Six months in and out of the hospital. Watching her slowly die and yet denying it at the same time. Fortunately I was able to be with her all those times in the hospital as I didn't have to work. I watched her slowly fade to black because of a stroke at the last and had to make that same decision of "no more". I felt as if I had given up on her. That she had been the brave one all that time and I was taking the easy way out. Yet she didn't die immediately. She lived another 4 days with just enough stuff on her to keep her comfortable. What the doctors like to call comfort level. Yet that too finally becomes support and another decision. I took her oxygen off myself and she died 3 hours later. And yeah, now the guilt sets in. She was 46. But as I read some of the stories on here it's hard to feel sorry for oneself. Almost makes you feel guilty for doing it. Thanks for listening to my vent.Ron