Posted by David on October 30, 2001 at 07:28:10:
In Reply to: Re: Re: Re: feeling very lonley posted by don on October 28, 2001 at 19:35:11:
My wife left this life almost three years ago. I understand your search for 'that special woman' and your disappointment in the results. I cannot fill that emptiness with another... but I can go on... and I do. It is a daily choice to live life, remembering the love I was priviledge to witness.
God has not abandoned you, nor you Him. He is there in your children. He has given pieces of your wife back to you. You recognize her in the faces of your boys... and those special, individual traits they share with her. His gift is in allowing you to see your wife in/through your children.
I rail at Him, at times, and ask hard questions. He listens and bears the load well, for His shoulders are broad. He is there to hear, for us to unload.
I have felt cheated. I will never see my grandchildren mimic their parents and be able to reminice with my wife, to say "They look just like our girls at that age. Remember?"
But she is alive in them, our children. I miss the sharing. I remember. I look forward to the future, to see their mother in my own... to see her in those yet unborn.
I will recognize her in their small steps. In that, I am whole.
God bless you on your journey.
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