Posted by Natasja van Tuyl on February 03, 2001 at 07:44:30:
I lost my husband last X-mas, while pregnant in my 7th month. I am 29 years old. I am Dutch, so was my husband and we were living abroad at the time he had the accident. I would like to know and maybe write with young people (in my age group) who had a similar experience, and what did you do afterwards? At the moment I live temporarily with my father and his girlfriend until the baby is born. It is a very unnatural situation, but I am glad I can live with them. Now, I have a strong need to go back to what gives me a safe feeling. One day all goes better than the next. Everything is so turned up-side-down, not only the loss, but for me it also meant moving back, make sure the company we had is in good hands, taking care of the little one inside me, and at the same time try not to lose my senses. I only have a few more weeks to go before the baby will be born, but now, when I can take a rest, the thing I do is cry. I am not helpless and I sure don't want anyones pity, but it's so difficult. It really feels like I am only half. To know you lost the love of your life makes me feel very alone.
Is there anyone who recognizes this?
I hope to hear from someone